Just saw a video about a guy without having arms and legs giving a seminar talk to students.

It's just sometimes.. We tend to neglect the little slightest fortunate things we had. We demand too much. Therefore life always seem so unworthy and we're always troubled by it.

Morale of story? Be thankful for our presence and what we had got, because our life is a lot better than what we don't know out there.

好辛苦。真想放弃。能不能别伪装了。。。

我好想你，好想和你说话。。但又不敢打扰你，怕你觉得我烦。只是。。我知道你永远不会属于我的。所以决定了放弃。

I feel so stupid and helpless...

Why is everyone getting good grades for their test without studying and I got C when I putted in efforts? I feel so unfair and unjustified. I hope these bastards will not get to excel in their next test which is also the most important one. Hopefully by excelling in the next test will pull everything up!

Of course, I don't have as much time as I wish to study.. I have YOG and other events coming up and I guess my time is constraint.

By the way, yesterday I confessed everything. I guess I shouldn't had expect anything from you. You and me and two different world in the first place. It's just that.. the damage done. It leaves me hanging. I'm recovering. Hopefully.

I was sick yesterday and not a sentence or even a word from you. Have you even realized I haven't been to school today? I bet you didn't...

I'm feeling really terrible now.. I wished I could break down and cry. Why. Why are you a straight and why am I gay. I wished I could save myself from this misery. Knowing that your nearby me everyday had always gave me the hope to see you.

Even though I know I shouldn't continue to be like this, I just can't help it.

God bless.

I felt slutty. Hah... Joke.

I miss you terribly much. Even though I flirt others, my heart eventually goes to you in the end. Do you have any idea how much this feeling is killing me? I wished I could someday told you how much I love you. I wish time could be the one witnessing the entire process. I'm afraid I won't be able to hold that long. I'm tired of putting up a tough front.

When you told me you find me weird that day, I have no idea how to react. I'm both happy and sad. I'm happy becus at least I'm special. At the same time, the rollers are tossing me becus you have no idea how to explain that feeling. I wished someone could see through me and tell you that.

What you been doing? I wonder. I've been waiting for your sms the entire time. I wanted to give up, but it's not easy. I'll try. Trust me.